Re: This maybe a bit off topic but
So, I guess the terms "pride", "defeat", "better", "damaging", "cocky", etc., are terms that I definitely either thought about or used when life was largely about the "rep", "impressing", being "the leader of the pack", etc., in my teens and even early 20s. Now that I look back on those really great times I can smile to myself at how cool I was. But, back then, I also was doing a lot of "fronting", if you know what I mean. I probably wasn't as confident in myself, and my skills, as I thought I was so I had this really well-polished cool facade to mask any thing I might have thought was a weakness on my part. Of course, I don't think many of us were totally confident in ourselves back then.
One of the neat things about being older is that a lot of that stress leaves. It's not a matter of being out front any more; it's a matter of not competing with my wife or fellow fisherman or business colleagues. It's a matter of viewing them for who they really are, what they really give, and what I can give in return that is special to that particular person. All of a sudden I find myself in the middle of good humor with good friends who I can trust to accept me for who I am and, walla!, life is so much more enjoyable now. It's harder from a physical standpoint; but much easier on the psyche.
I wouldn't trade, for anything, that stress and all the hard knocks of "finding myself" over the years. It's a great trip, this life.
I hope you print your post out and stick it away somewhere. Every time you have a birthday that ends with a "0" (zero), take the post out and read it. I bet in a few decades you'll smile like I did when I read your post.
Go for it kid, just keep your eyes and sensitivities open and the trip will be even better. You ask good questions.
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